I whispered your name and then fell to my knees
Can’t find the words (can’t find the words)
Suspended as I learn to speak
Always choking on my spit
Can’t find mine. Wont forget yours
Frozen in time
Blessed by this weakness
Cursed with regret

Soulless walking addict vessel
How’s your chemical heartbeat?
42 years this wounds been open
Detestation festering

You choose to feed it like an infant
You’ve always been my greatest hope and my greatest fear

We will grieve
No words to speak
When I’m on my knees
How could I forgive?
We will grieve
Losing everything
It goes on and on and on
I’m breaking the cycle.

Deceptive crawling addict beggar
Your absence is a relief
Eager for disjunction – our
communion was my ulcer

You choose to nurse it like a patient
You’ve trampled over all my dreams

I finally found the words
Your ashes will never hear me speak

We will grieve
No words to speak
When I’m on my knees
How could I forgive?
We will grieve
Losing everything
It goes on and on and on
I’m breaking the cycle.

Erase you.